sweet gee-zus

Wow, has it really been a month?

Did I just make the decision to drink a hugeass beer before any sort of substantial meal?

And WHAT THE FUCK is this bullshit?

It's exactly what I've learned to fear in this perceptual transformation from gays as 'the evil other' to 'acceptable demographic.' People are finally learning that homophobia is wack...yay...except the people in question are business people. "Are you just like Jack from 'Will and Grace?' Do women all want to be your best friend? Then come market our fucking bullshit shampoo product.'

Fuck that. SO many times.

And you know what else can fuck right off? Both of my jobs. It's finally come time to quit at the coffee shop. It's coming up close to giving the office job an extra-especial fuckoff as well, but I'll just part-time and keep my eyes double peeled. It's time to whip up an experientially exaggerated resume and go back to prostituting my soul to tablewaiting.

Because I just visited my brother who was passing through outer Dallas (note to self - never return) and found myself hurting time and moneywise with only one complete day off. I worked in the morning, went to Dull-ass, spent a full day there and left the next day early afternoon to go back and work at night.

I want to have pretty things. And paid-off credit cards. And more drinking money and more time to effervesce into the social world.

Because everything now is just so much less than I need it to be. Me included. I'm running around at half-power and fully-boring way too many of the days now.

It's time to get pathelogical.